Anima Vestra – Your Soul

Posted in Uncategorized on June 19, 2018 by His Dark Side

My Gym – the 36th Chamber

Posted in Uncategorized on February 8, 2015 by His Dark Side

I sit composing my frame and body, allowing breathing to steady and heartbeat to settle. The heat is turned up in the gym, and I wait for it to warm while water simmers. Black coffee first. I’ll also empty by bowels.

There is a dark ritual that allows me to enter a physical resource state for exercise. Focus has to be precise. Any lapse or break in concentration can make me depart from a good workout. Building muscle isn’t my goal, yet it remains a welcomed by-product.

Instead, it is about movement. The improvement in function of my body.
In many ways the gym is a torture chamber. It is my haven, a cleansed space only for my use. My creation. Patiently it awaits my entrance.


Art of War – Quote

Posted in Uncategorized on February 3, 2015 by His Dark Side

“If your enemy is secure at all points, be prepared for him.
If he is in superior strength, evade him.
If your opponent is temperamental, seek to irritate him.
Pretend to be weak, that he may grow arrogant.
If he is taking his ease, give him no rest.
If his forces are united, separate them.
If sovereign and subject are in accord, put division between them.
Attack him where he is unprepared, appear where you are not expected.”
Sun Tzu
(The Art of War)



Posted in Uncategorized on January 30, 2015 by His Dark Side


Gung Fu Claw

Posted in Uncategorized on January 30, 2015 by His Dark Side

“Sidi, finga powah!” he exclaimed, with his brow deeply furrowed.

Sifu Leung called me “Sidi” for the 11 year period that I trained with him in Red Boat Wing Chun. And despite having lived in England for a couple of years before I met him, he had adopted only the most rudimentary English words which he spewed out with a strong Mandarin accent.

He grabbed my forearm and demonstrated what he meant by ‘finger power’ which I will try to briefly explain by describing what I felt and saw.

I watched as he grabbed my arm and the tips of his fingers became embedded, pressed into my flesh. There was a white hot burning sensation where his nails threatened to tear into skin and I saw the veins furiously pop up across striated muscles of his tensed forearm.

In that instant, Sifu taught me that when you grab a person your hand should resemble a piercing claw.

The intent is to grab through fascia, skin, superficial tissue, and dig in such a way that you feel the separation of strands of muscle, into the rigid depth point of bone. When you seize, do it in such a way that you control the opponent whilst also making him feel pain.

This is Gung Fu.


Anxiety, Gung Fu and MMA

Posted in Martial Arts and Training on January 29, 2015 by His Dark Side

I have low level anxiety before training MMA. Moments of doubt and self deprecation creep in, in which being a Gung Fu man feels more like a limiting factor.

The rounds are timed during (no gi) grappling bouts and my main training partners are not only seasoned veterans, but also ex-fighters.

Last night my main grappling coach took me apart in a calculated way. Strength and explosiveness are his forte. After him came an Olympic level wrestler, who is blindingly fast and fluid. And the 30 seconds respite wasn’t enough before I faced a hyper-flexible Jiu Jitsu black belt.

Words of encouragement are cold comfort at times like this.

They say that you are only as good as your training partners. My partners are world class. Mostly, I feel entirely out of my depths, but I freely admit that grappling makes me uncomfortable (even if I have reached a level of competence).

Yet, when gloves are strapped on and I have the freedom to self express with footwork, punches and kicks, there is no anxiety.

There is just union with the grand ultimate, a feeling of oneness with all creation.

This is when Gung Fu becomes liberating.

Wu Wei, Gung Fu and Anger

Posted in Martial Arts and Training on January 27, 2015 by His Dark Side

Flowing in natural harmony with ones personality and disposition is supremely martial. Unlike others, I do not suppress nor repress my processes with a view to, inter alia, presenting myself as a noble, yet altogether vacuous, being. When I am angry, I allow for the mechanism of violence to flow freely and adrenalin and cortisol to be secreted without restraint.

By allowing one to flow in natural harmony with the inclinations of the body is wu wei; the active-elusive of ‘unforced action’. The limiting constraint however is to channel such behaviours into manifestations that aren’t overtly destructive, I hit heavy bags, spar and practice Gung Fu. This is martial arts and I doubt whether any man will be able to misalign the totality of my thoughts to present me with a new paradigm shift akin to Kuhn’s Theorem of Scientific Revolution. I have stood on the shoulders of two behemoths, Leung, Kwok-Keung sifu and Jesse Glover, sifu. So what threat would you pose with flaccid words and mediocre martial capability?

The alternate schema appears to be one of exaggerated political correctness and the casting of aspersions onto another. When one speaks in individual tones of accusations toward another, just as you have spoken to me, it becomes a supremely cowardly act considering the limitations of time and space for me to have the pleasure of looking you in the eye and welcoming critical observations. But you wouldn’t want to fuck with me. Trust.

Rather than asking for justifications of your inflammatory language I would defer to Jung and ask; what insecurities exist within you (and your psyche) which you are seeking to project.

Darkness reigns supreme.


Anti-Life Equation

Posted in Uncategorized on January 27, 2015 by His Dark Side

condemnation ÷ misunderstanding x guilt x shame x failure x judgment n=y where y=hope and n=folly, love=lies, life=death, self=dark side

(Grant Morrison)


Evolve or Die

Posted in Martial Arts and Training on January 27, 2015 by His Dark Side

“No problem. Your technique is really getting slick.” (One of my Grappling coaches)

Constantly pursuing the goal of evolution in my martial journey, I am currently training with several freestyle grappling coaches and an Olympic level wrestling coach. Since my last mentor Jesse Glover died (and the bullshit bickering amongst his students as to the heirs of Non Classical Gung Fu) I’ve devoted my time to training Red Boat Wing Chun and NCGF with my small group, whilst becoming a student at an MMA gym (where I coach a striking class).

Yet again, all of my free time involves physical training or research into training methods.

The rest of the world can burn, just leave me to my own training; this is the true path of Gung Fu.

Fight Notes from My IPhone (excerpt)

Posted in Martial Arts and Training on January 27, 2015 by His Dark Side

Against southpaw boxer use solid right jab and left hook (very effective).

In grappling apply more pressure and stay on top of opponent.

Stretch shoulders by punching different angles, straight, up, down,back, across.
Amir khan effective because he makes few mistakes, not because he’s an exceptional boxer. Covers chin well with right hand. Is able to counter opponents counter punches. Good at stringing combinations of body and head shots.

Sugar ray Robinson was brilliant puncher who used outside shots and loose open guard. Particularly good shovel hooks and upper cuts.

Against tight guard, use pawing shots. Open guard use lunging straights.

“To learn Gung Fu you have to be patient.” Abbot (Hitman in the Hand of Buddha)

“The opponent does not know me;
I alone know him.” Attributed to Wang Tsung-yueh [Wang Zongyue] (18th Century) Tai Chi Master

Ghost Fighting is a counter punching style where you lean back and counter on either side of opponents lead (you come away on Y formation). Practice it as a drill with puncher stepping forward and you backing off on angles with counters on inside.

Mastery occurs when information is neurally assimilated and accessing it appears to operate unconsciously. It is when the operation of a skill happens in a flow state and appears to be like magic.

“The problem is that most people don’t want to train that hard.” Jesse Glover


Posted in Uncategorized on January 26, 2015 by His Dark Side

“The aspirant has to be guided by a mentor. The stage at which this guidance can take effect is seldom, if ever, perceptible to the learner. Those who say ‘I am ready to learn’, or ‘I am not ready to learn’ are as often mistaken as they are correct in their surmise. Yet the aspirant must try, neither thinking that he is nothing, not ‘trying to sit on a throne’. I found this couplet in the Persian text of Rumi’s Letters: If you cannot sit on a throne like a king, seize, like a tent-pitcher, the rope of the Royal tent.” Idries Shah


Posted in Uncategorized on January 26, 2015 by His Dark Side

What does it take to be a Master? Deliberate practice? 10,000 hours? Is it a kind of magick, ethereal and esoteric? Is it something accessible to us all? Is it about knowing, but without conscious thought, like Wu-shin (or Mushin)?

Chi Sao – Energetics

Posted in Uncategorized on January 25, 2015 by His Dark Side

It’s unfair to indict a persons skill without at least some explanation.

In my opinion:

The bridge (arm) work is overemphasized when the essence of chi sau is connectivity to the ground: a) sinking hips (kwa) b) creating a balanced yet heavy feeling in the legs which enable c) a positive connection of the root of the body.

I don’t see any sinking of the hip or positioning of legs that suggest he is rooted. Without root, the higher levels of skill will never manifest.

***The legs represent yin structure or heaviness while the arms and upper are yang, light and relaxed.

It is easy to use labels and Chinese expressions to suggest expertise but quite often this scheme is used to create a perception in the unsophisticated student that you know what you’re talking about. Kau sau (detaining arm) and gum sau (pinning arm) are used in error here.

One has to be careful about creating solid shapes. There are only 3 hand positions, tan (disperse), fook (subdue) and bong (deflect). These 3 clear separate positions were not evident which made it look like lazy rolling. Without correct shapes, there is no issuing or transfer of power from the root, up the torso and directly into the opponent.

Elbows have to be pushed to lowest position (while hands are pointed towards openers face) to link power to your own center of mass. If you have lazy elbows there is no connection to the hip and once again no body unity in transfer of power.

It is only when you are rooted that you can steal your opponents balance. Hitting from chi sao is obviously important, but being able to disconnect an opponents connection to the ground is the real reason you “stick” or have an adhesive effect on the opponent.

I’ll stop there…


Sticking Hands in Gung Fu

Posted in Uncategorized on January 24, 2015 by His Dark Side

***applies to sticking hands from Wing Chun and pushing hands from Tai Chi.

It is not the tangible ‘you’ who is sticking, in adhesive totality with the opponent, but more rather your essence.

The body, comprising the appendages, limbs and extending into the digits of your hands, are merely the subframe or conduit by which your essence communicates with the opponent. Your body is merely the physical gateway with corresponding nerve endings, muscle, tissue, fascia, bone and marrow, that allows your essence to conjoin with the opponents essence.

Once contact has been made, allow the physical shell to dissolve and instead redirect your attention toward increasing the feeling within your force field of essence based energy.

Increase it’s depth and potency, following which you must concentrate your Will in projecting your force directly into the opponent.

Similarly, lock onto the essence of the opponent.

Manipulate it.

Bend it.

Twist it.

Take control of the opponents spirit.

Diminish it.

Cut it.

Pierce it.


Opera House Xi-Ban Yong-Chun – Tony Leung

Posted in Uncategorized on January 7, 2015 by His Dark Side

The Headless Horseman

Posted in Martial Arts and Training on March 3, 2014 by ctkwingchun


One of my favourite quotes from The Hagakure is, “I know not the way to defeat others, only the way to defeat myself.”

There is no way of knowing how to beat my opponent.  There is, however, the entire knowledge of how to defeat myself.

Are there holes in my game?

Usually, after years of skill amassment, the issue lies not in gaining more skill but a need to look within – into the mentality of oneself as a fighter.


Posted in Death and the Macabre with tags on January 2, 2014 by ctkwingchun

Lucifer Banished

You’ve finished another year and escaped the Reaper’s hands once again!

Much proud.  Much love.


The Prophet; Self-Knowledge

Posted in Quotes and Articles with tags on December 29, 2013 by ctkwingchun

Your hearts know in silence the secrets of the days and the nights.

But your ears thirst for the sound of your heart’s knowledge.

You would know in words that which you have always known in thought.

You would touch with your fingers the naked body of your dreams.


And it is well you should.

The hidden well-spring of your soul must needs rise and run murmuring to the sea;

And the treasure of your infinite depths would be revealed to your eyes,

But let there be no scales to weigh your unknown treasure;

And seek not the depths of your knowledge with staff or sounding line.

For self is a sea boundless and measureless.


Say not, ‘I have found the truth,’ but rather, ‘I have found a truth.’

Say not, ‘I have found the path of the soul.’  Say rather, ‘I have met the soul walking upon my path.’

For the soul walks upon all paths.

The soul walks not upon a line, neither does it grow like a reed.

The soul unfolds itself, like a lotus of countless petals.

Few People

Posted in Martial Arts and Training, Quotes and Articles with tags , on December 27, 2013 by ctkwingchun

When I think about Wing Chun I think that certain aspects of it are great. At the same time I think that other aspects of it are not practical for the average student. Wong Shun Leung said that Wing Chun is a good horse but few people can ride it. I totally agree with this statement. The techniques in Wing Chun that anyone can learn are chain punching, chasing, simultaneous punching and blocking and certain aspects of sticking hands.

– Jesse Glover

Moy Yat; True Kung-Fu

Posted in Quotes and Articles with tags on December 26, 2013 by ctkwingchun

Moy Yat

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