Trust

It’s a scary thing that meditation.  It can lead a person down to the deepest depths of themselves.

Many practitioners talk about the immense calm that meditation brings.  For many, however, it brings immense panic.

Once the anxiety surfaces, it seems natural to run.  Fear of the unknown.  But it all comes down to trust.

There is, I feel, a lack of trust in ourselves.  We feel that we don’t have the necessary tools to visit our most innate thought and emotional processes.  That is why a guide is sometimes necessary.  Someone to tell our blockages to.  Someone to tell us that they believe that we have the strength to welcome in the unknown.  “Nobody every died from a panic attack.”

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Those feelings of panic – of higher vibration – we don’t have time for those.  Go away.  I have a life to live right now.  Yet, when pushed, they push back – harder.  So then we look for distractions, self-medicating.  Perhaps then asking the Medical Doctor to prescribe something a little more socially acceptable.

Meditation is making time for yourself.  Trust is key.  Trusting in that what our bodies have to say and the ability to listen to what is being said.

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“So what’s the point?” she asked me.

The point is to re-member yourself.  To allow some space and time to let those sensations in.  It is like an apparition that wants to use you like a conduit.  You must let it in and let it use you up in order for it to express its purpose.  Only then will it burn itself out.

It will get easier.  It will eventually get calm.  Trust yourself – in all things.

CTK

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One Response to “Trust”

  1. authenticizeit Says:

    Wish I could’ve read or heard this about 6 years ago! Would’ve eased my anxiety about being anxious as ‘stuff’ surfaced – the quieter I became inside.

    On second thought, knowing the way I am, maybe it’s better that I came to this on my own. But some hints or reassurances like your words here could’ve helped me along for sure!

    It took a while, years – and lots of working (playing) on my acre – in the dirt, planting trees, climbing trees, fighting thistles, struggling to learn how to fully embrace and work WITH nature – not against it – before I finally understood what you’re talking about here. Like the high winds we get around our home. Propping things flat against the wind didn’t work. Learning to accept it and actually use it to my benefit and helped me see that I was reaching my goals for the property much faster than fighting nature! Using angles and momentum and borrowed energy at times…..oh my, now this is starting to sound like another training-related topic. LOL Anyway, point is that accepting what surfaces when we choose to become quiet and open can be scary at first. The nature of all that sh** is to blast down your wind-blocks…the walls you’ve constructed to keep it all at bay – to survive. For me it took realizing that maybe I was surviving, but I was most definitely not living. When I admitted that, I was in full-on ‘bring ON the gale-force wind’ mode! It hurts, especially the initial blasts, but you CAN handle it. Gradually the winds DO quiet down and peace fills their place. It’s awesome. Thanks so much for triggering this memory-journey!

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