Mirror – Redux

I’ve opted for green tea. It leaves me feeling vacuous, reinforcing my belief in the virtue of coffee. Rising from my seat I walk to the toilet. The patrons of Starbucks are locked out as the door closes. My own reflection flashes past me as  I walk fast, past an oversized mirror; beholding everything, holding nowt. Nature calls. I hear the shimmer of piss on water as I drain myself.

Everything’s complicated, even those things that seem flat in their bleakness or sadness. Nick Hornby

My parents brought me up well enough for the upbringing to remind me to wash my hands. Cold tap turns and  swirling water cascades. Looking up, eyes meet mirror. Here I am, fully focused, fully realized. Mirror stealing my soul. I avert my gaze.

Absolute silence leads to sadness. It is the image of death. Jean Jacques Rousseau

Tired eyes reflect back. Etched furrow lines, deep creviced on my forehead. Grey stubble nudges out of chin. My skin is aged. Peering deeper I see reddened eyes. I appear sad, the last vestige of happiness having departed like sun giving way to a crescent moon.

My grief lies all within. And these external manners of lament are merely shadows to the unseen grief that swells with silence in the tortured soul. Shakespeare

A dull ache hums and vaporises into mist somewhere in the distance. Hands dry leaving me feeling untouched, subdued, melancholy. Eyes meet mirror. Older.

I depart.

***image by Ross Brown
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3 Responses to “Mirror – Redux”

  1. Tearing up here. Seriously. Even though I have been through this http://goodcleanfood.wordpress.com/2012/02/19/sick-of-being-sick/
    I still feel like the girl in that photo above. Working on my demons.

    • His Dark Side Says:

      If insanity is a sane reaction to an insane world, then sickness is the body’s reaction to an unhealthy world. Thank you for your link. Blessings on your journey to health.

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