It’s a scary thing that meditation. It can lead a person down to the deepest depths of themselves.
Many practitioners talk about the immense calm that meditation brings. For many, however, it brings immense panic.
Once the anxiety surfaces, it seems natural to run. Fear of the unknown. But it all comes down to trust.
There is, I feel, a lack of trust in ourselves. We feel that we don’t have the necessary tools to visit our most innate thought and emotional processes. That is why a guide is sometimes necessary. Someone to tell our blockages to. Someone to tell us that they believe that we have the strength to welcome in the unknown. “Nobody every died from a panic attack.”
Those feelings of panic – of higher vibration – we don’t have time for those. Go away. I have a life to live right now. Yet, when pushed, they push back – harder. So then we look for distractions, self-medicating. Perhaps then asking the Medical Doctor to prescribe something a little more socially acceptable.
Meditation is making time for yourself. Trust is key. Trusting in that what our bodies have to say and the ability to listen to what is being said.
“So what’s the point?” she asked me.
The point is to re-member yourself. To allow some space and time to let those sensations in. It is like an apparition that wants to use you like a conduit. You must let it in and let it use you up in order for it to express its purpose. Only then will it burn itself out.
It will get easier. It will eventually get calm. Trust yourself – in all things.